without care

Without Care
Have you ever played poker online for fake chips? Well when the money is fake, you tend to be braver or sometimes just plain stupid with your bets. You play without care for the money. Sometimes, you win big. If you play conservatively, you lose.

Well, yesterday I got a letter in the mail from the courts. It was from the Conference Officer that I sent my non compliance report to about the phone calls... she actually read it... she actually sent recommendations to the judge to do something about it.. she even added in that my ex wife may have a drug problem. She recommended that the court, interview the children and she brought up the history of visitation problems and extremely difficulty that we have communicating and she said that it was possible that there was alienation as well as my ex wife monitoring the phone calls.

That is all good news, I mean that maybe a counselor will talk to the boys and I am sure that they will see through all of the lies.

It's just that when I decide to go and live my life and not to proceed with the courts anymore.. that is when the first real hope of a change comes through.

I don't know what is going to happen, but I hope the court does talk to the boys. It's time they told someone what is happening.

Stop

I took this picture a few weeks ago and just found it in my camera. They were doing some work on the road and it was reduced to one lane of traffic, so we had to wait while the cars came from the other way. There was this guy that held up the stop sign, he was shaking and could barely stand up. He seemed to be in some sort of pain.. maybe a hangover, maybe he had to really go to the bathroom, but finally he sat down on this cooler and hugged his stop sign. I took a picture through the glass of my windshield, so the quality isn't good.. but when I saw the picture again, I know that I have felt this way too...




A strange Dream

I had a strange dream last night... I was dreaming that I woke up and that I was late for something, I was in a panic, so much so that it woke me up from my real slumber. I got up to go to the bathroom, with a little of that dream panic still in my veins.. until.. I looked at the clock and saw that it was 2:30am. I went back to sleep with a smile on my face, back to my comfy cozy bed with my wife. I leaned over and put my arm around her and she said... "I love you" I could see her smile, even though I had my eyes closed.


Politics

I love reading blogs about politics, and sometimes I leave comments. There is this one blog that is particulary sold on George W. so I leave my comments.. and lately I have noticed that they have been deleted, shortly after I left them.

Hmm..