January 28th, 2003

Today is Alex's 10th birthday. I won't be able to celebrate with him. It's a glitch in the divorce agreement. I see him in the morning this year and of course he is at school. I'll see him tomorrow for our Wed. dinner and we will be going to his favorite restaraunt, Outback Steakhouse.

I know that there are some out there that understand how I feel right now. I have this uneasy feeling inside. I don't want to show that there is a sense of sadness that I feel, that I miss so much with my boys.

Not much to say about it.. nothing much new. I miss them, I am missing this day with Alex and he is growing up so quickly. I can't wait for the weekend.