International calls

I have been calling people all over the world. I really enjoy it. From the Ukraine to Angola, from Vietnam to Costa Rica. I love talking to people all over the world. People are very friendly and they really don't expect a call. Anyway, the other day I was talking to someone from Colombia. They told me that they moved to Costa Rica because of all the violence in his home country. He said that there are so many people moving to Costa Rica that the job market is slim. He said that an MBA just doesn't cut it.. not even for a sales job, he needs his Doctorate. Our talk and the reminiscing about Bogotá, his home town made me think about my ex girlfriend. She was from Bogotá and I met her family there. I spent 2 weeks in that incredible city. Then the same day I called someone in Cyprus... another place that I visited with my ex girlfriend. It made me think about how she was. When we broke up, I think I was at the lowest point in my life. She has severe depression and she would cut herself when she felt really bad. I don't tell many people this little story. We met online and she lived in Tempe at the time completing her Masters degree. It was a strange relationship that drove my family away from me.. and well.. I won't go into too much, but I did see some parts of the world with her and I am thankful for the time that we had together. So I thought that I better check on her. I hadn't spoken to her via email for almost one year. I kept her last email in one of those folders in my email, but I had never replied to it. I didn't want to really be friends anymore. I guess I have grown up quite a bit and so, I wrote her to tell her that I am getting married. I knew she would be happy for me. When we were going out, she would tell me that I was the perfect man, and that I would make some girl very happy.. but not her.... she didn't know how to be in a relationship. She had tried to kill herself when she was with me... when she couldn't cope with everything, she took 50 Prozac and I called 911. We broke up shortly after that. She went back to Colombia,,, then a year later moved to Ohio.

So, she wrote back to tell me that she is very happy for me.. and that she would like to send me a gift. She told me that her brother now lives in the Phoenix area and she told me all about the rest of her family. She also said that she still is very ill and she won't be finishing her second Master's degree in Ohio.. instead.. she said that she was accepted to pursue a full PHD in Cultural Studies at Arizona State. The last time she came to Phoenix, I dropped off some of her photos at the hotel that she was staying at.

I just felt like sharing this.. because it brings back some memories. I went to Colombia and she didn't feel well the entire time. I did get out and see the city, with her family and I enjoyed seeing her brother, because he is pretty cool. I loved Cyprus, but I spent most of the time alone or with her nephew, she again wasn't feeling well. I was her caretaker, I am perfect for that... she would have eventually bled me dry.

I think that everything that happens in our lives, happens for a reason. Talking to my ex girlfriend via email, makes me realize just how much I truly love my fiancée and how happy I am today... just how blessed my life is. I may complain now and then, but the past is the past and what I make of today is what matters. I don't regret a single thing in my life, because it got me to where I am today. I do wish that I could take back about 15 years and have that with my future wife, but that isn't going to happen so I can't complain about it. I do know that if things didn't happen the way they did.. I wouldn't be who I am today. and I am damn happy with the man that I am today

I survived an abusive ex wife... I made it out and found away to get my power back.. to regain my soul. I spent 2 years with someone that was very sick.. someone that everyone warned me about... that most people didn't even know how bad off she really was. Eventually, I saved myself from that situation as well.. I made the break and felt a load of relief.

And.... that brings me to here... today... soon to be married again.. soon to start building a new life with someone that I love and the loves me very much. I am blessed.... I have survived some difficult times and I know that my life has been blessed.