Feeling better :)

Thanks Tony, thanks for the reminder that God does have a plan for us. I know that it will be up to me to make a difference in my life and I am learning lessons right now.

Sorry for being in such crappy mood. It has just been one of those weeks. In between the beautiful loving glances and words from my girlfriend and the encouraging words form my best friend. I want to make an effort to go out and make more friends and to meet as many of you as possible.

This week, one of my favorite people in the blogging world is going to be in Phoenix. She asked if I would like to have lunch. I feel bad because, I actually have 3 things that I have to do this weekend.. One, is to go to a company bbq, that I may just skip out on. I should go, but I am not really in the mood. Secondly, my Aunt and Cousin are in town this weekend and my father is planning some kind of get together at his house with my sister and her family. Third, and this is the real challenge, I want to spend the weekend with my girlfriend. We have planned to be together. So, I would have to tell her about my blog, so I could also tell her about the person that I will be meeting and then.. well..then.. things change..

I have struggled with this decision for the past few days.. I really want to meet my online friend. I feel that I am in some way deceiving my girlfriend because she doesn't know about all of you. All of you are my secret friends. Is that unfair? Should I not keep this part of my life secret?

So, there are three options:

1. Continue my private blog, which really isn't so private. This week, I found out that someone else that works here, also has a blog and we both share a friend here in the blogging world. I haven't met him yet, it's a big company.

2. Tell my girlfriend about my blog, let her know that I started it about a year ago, about the time she went out of the country to visit her friends and family. I kept it private, but now it has grown into something that I really love and I want to share it with her.

3. Stop blogging. (really, I don't think this is an option... this is really my therapy, you all help me so much)

Honesty, has always been one of the virtues that I strongly believe in. Not just being honest, but complete honesty. And... honestly, I never thought that anyone would ever really read my blog. I never thought that I would really write every day.

There is a fourth option and that is to start a new blog.. completely new.. from scratch and let my girlfriend know that I am doing it.

Here is the thing.. if she knew about this blog, I don't think she would really be comfortable with it. She is very much like me.. I know how she feels.. I would never want to make her feel uncomfortable in anyway.

Hmmmm.. what would I want her to do? If the roles were reversed.. if she had a blog of her own?

thinking.......

How would you feel?