Epiphanies

I know there is a reason. Yesterday I had a moment of anxiety. Well, not just a moment, it was one of those mind numbing events in which I sit and feel as thought all of my thoughts are fuzzy. That feeling of fear that stops you in your tracks. Slams doors shut and the world feels like it is closing in. That feeling just before you black out,,, but you don't black out, you just feel lost

I decided to ask someone else the same question. I prayed. I sat here in the cubicle with my eyes closed. I got my answer. I was given this little gift of being able to step out and look at myself, to step out and look at my life. I guess some would call these moments, little epiphanies. I don't know what to call it. I just know that I had this intense feeling of calm rush through me. The fuzzy feeling was gone, and my mind was clear. The fog was lifted.

Nothing changed, except the way I look at the things that happen each day. Actually, that is a very big thing.

Yes, everything happens for a reason and today I have this Buddha like calm in my soul. I would love to pass it on, to give it to all of you. I think that some of you have it already.

Have you ever had that opportunity to stop and step out of yourself and look back? It has happened to me a few times. It is as if someone has grabbed me, pulled me away and then shook me up and said... "look...LOOK!" Sometimes I haven't liked what I see. If we grow like old trees, I had a big growth spurt yesterday.

You may want to know what caused it. Fear caused it.

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. I will be busy. Saturday is my father's birthday, we are going to see the Dbacks play the Cubs. Saturday night I am going to dinner with my girlfriend and her brother to a friend's house, we will be eating authentic east Indian cuisine. Sunday is pretty much open, but I think we will be doing some shopping with my girlfriend's brother. My girlfriend's birthday is on Monday.