a short trip

Today, I leave for Phoenix

It will be a short trip, but it is an important one. It will be nice to see my family and to talk to the boys and give them hugs at school. I know that it will be brief... they'll have to get into class, but it is important to me.

It is foggy here in Tulsa. I love all the changes in weather. In Phoenix it is 78 degrees today, a beautiful day. I don't really miss it at all. I like that I have to check with the weatherman each day before I get leave the house. For some reason, fog is comforting to me. Looking out my window, I can see across the street but no further.

Yesterday as I was driving from Tulsa to Oklahoma City, I was thinking that it looked a lot like Scotland, although I am sure some people would think that is crazy. Northeast Oklahoma is called Green Country and it is filled with fields, trees and rolling hills. There are lakes, ponds and rivers and yesterday on the foggy wet drive, it did look a lot like Scotland.

I have calmed down a bit since getting that letter from my ex wife. One of the things that bugs me is that...she gets what she wants... she wanted to make me angry... to piss me off.. I shouldn't give that to her. She is really hurting Alex, not me. He'll remember this, if he is afraid to write anymore. You know what he asked for at Christmas... he told everyone.. "please send me more letters" he loves letter writing and receiving letters and cards at school. He told me that he puts them on his desk during the day at school and then hides in a file that says "private" During parent teacher conferences or open houses, the teacher holds that file for him so his mother won't find it. How sad is that... but in a way, Alex likes all the intrigue.. .you know? Well, I bet he still writes me letters, he'll just be more careful.