The other day I sent out my wedding pictures to all of my friends. They all responded and were very nice. One of them told me her good news.. that her husband finished his Masters and got a job in Dallas, which meant that she would be leaving Oklahoma. I told her that I had been thinking about my life and explained everything that has been happening lately. I told her that maybe the best thing for me would be to relocate and start my life with M. She told me that I could apply for the job that she was leaving.

It's sort of a long story, but I hooked her up with the job originally.. I was going to get an interview, but said no because I did not want to relocate. It means a company car and a job that I would love. Of course, you know that it also means that I won't be seeing my boys during the school year, except for holidays and summer.

I sent off my application and resume and I have an interview tomorrow.

Just so you know.. I have 16 years of high level experience in this industry and if I am not the front runner, then I will be surprised.

My head is clear at this point.. I don't think that I can go through any more of the crap that my ex wife can put me through. It will never end.. NEVER end... and I have to start to realize that nothing will make her change. Is it really good for the boys? I know that they need me. I have spoken to lawyers about my options. Luckily, I found a couple that will talk to you for free and give you advice. They told me that my only option would be to go for the boys full time.... but.. I would have to have lots of proof and then even then.. there is no guarantee... and I should be ready to spend $10,000.. not only on court costs, but counselors and other court appointed representatives. It could take 2 years or more.

Or, I can continue on the way I do.. there is nothing really that stops my ex wife from not giving me the boys on any given weekend.

Look at what has happened in the past 5 years... has it really been good for the boys?

What happens happens..

I know that some will see this as me giving up on my boys.

Let's just look at the future.. the next 5 years... I can stay here... and make about 1/2 of my earning potential, in a job that I don't really like. I can continue to look for a position here.. that fits me. and.. I can go through this crap with my ex wife about picking up my boys.. this is a turning point right here.. it is very obvious that she doesn't care if I get the boys again... ever.. and she also realizes that there are very few consequences for her actions. if any...

so.. if I were to stay here.. in 5 years.. I may be kicking myself.. because I won't be seeing the boys very much anyway...

Maybe I should do what is best for me.. and M... and maybe it may even be better for the boys.. although I know those people are evil.. and the boys will not get good values from them... they aren't getting much from me at this point.