For M

I never really thought that I could be so comfortable with someone, I never really thought that I could trust someone so much. I never really thought that being together all the time would not feel stifling rather it feels just right. I don't look forward to be away from you or to having time alone, rather when I am alone, I wish that I was with you. I know that it may seem obsessive or possessive to some, but it isn't. It is just that I want to share things with you. I am so happy that we have an appreciation for the same things. I know that you will never love auto racing the way I do, but I love that you will put the race on when you know I want to watch it. I love it that you get all excited about watching a basketball game with me. I love the way you look in jeans.. and with nothing on at all.. I love to hold your hand in the car. We may be an odd looking couple, and some people even stare at us. I don't mind.. maybe I even like it that we are not typical. I love that we are compatible in so many ways.. some of them nobody else will ever know about ;).. I love it that most people would think you are a prude... well.. let them think that :)

I love you for who you are... I love it that one of your favorite shows on TV is Pepper Ann. I love that you get cravings and that you can actually eat more than me, even though you are 1/2 my size. I love it that you think about me... and that you care about me. I think it is funny that you think that I am the romantic one. I love it that you will save money for months and then buy yourself a nice Tag watch.

I love it that you are so excited about your new makeup, like a little kid trying something new, and I love it that you don't wear too much.. that you can just blow dry your hair and go. I love your eyes, your mouth, your skin, the way you smell.

I love it that this Saturday, you will be my wife.. I love that you have grown to not just accept my boys, but to try to be a part of our lives together. I know that has been difficult. I know that you never thought that you would be marrying a divorced man with 2 kids that is 13 years older than you, but I love you more for never giving up on me. for sometimes going through hell with me for putting up with me being upset and hurting from loss and making my life feel so full with your love.

Thank for everything you have given me... thank you for making my life feel as if it was blessed, that nothing can go wrong. Thank you for making me forget those times when I thought that this world would be better off without me.

I wonder sometimes if God truly is paying me back.. letting me trade in some of my karma. I used to think think that the other shoe would drop. I used to think that for every good time, there were two bad times coming soon. I used to worry that good feelings would never last.

Because of you, I now believe that I can be happy forever, regardless of what comes my way.

I want you to know... that I will always love you.. I will love you for as long as I live.